I wish to be the man behind the curtain

I hate math. Not a lot of things in this world make me truly feel rage (which is kind of sad because there are a lot of horrible things to be mad about) the way that math does. Some people who play video games can get so angry they smash controllers; I could liken my dislike for math to be along the same lines.

I've grown up in video games. I've skipped along small mental realms to the next almost my entire life, with the exception of the one central universe I reside in. We've all been presented with problems in our lives, walls of shit that we would need to deal with. Some people don't have to deal with very much shit, I myself am pretty lucky that I'm one of the select few who gets to grow up in a 1st world country away from serious things. I picked and choosed what issues I wanted to deal with in the beginning of my life via video games. All of the obstacles in my way were obstacles with solutions that I knew existed, in this world I don't have that luxury to know that things can always be solved.

Society has pushed at me that I would need to find a calling to live off of, for a long time I played with the idea that I could create games for a living (I think a lot of gamers did), but I quickly learned that just being a computer networking technician is fine and easier to achieve. Recently my old 'friend' math resurfaced into my life, and it's posing quite a challenge. Trying not to discourage me my father tried to remind me that there are other callings, but there really aren't. Anything other than this (being around computers) would be forced.

After taking an IQ test in high school I was actually advised to avoid math. This doesn’t somehow make me more determined to get my math ("I'll show them!") so I can move on to the computer networking course, but it does show what I am up against. My mind is capable of understanding the formulas; it's just going to take me awhile. Luckily I’ve got awesome parents who will support me while I struggle with this obstacle. It's possible I may never be able to get past it, but I haven't run into a set of problems I couldn't solve before. These math questions are no different from the problems I face in video games. They are manmade problems with solutions.

Edit: Grr, it bothers me that i can't seem to fix the messed up fonts... Maybe if i stopped trying to use Chrome.