Reflecting

With about 2 weeks left before I finish Grade 12 I figure now would be a good time to reflect upon my years in school.

So generally I’ve grown up around people who are not very interested in the same things I am, for example, kids in my current school made fun of me all the time because I called the computer a "PC". Their main form of entertainment, aside from getting hammered in the middle of a wheat field, was sports.

Now, in order to gauge how little I care about sports I’ve coined up a nice phrase that sums up my feelings: I would pay to not have to watch a game. I just find it all terribly boring, but I understand why people enjoy it. They enjoy the back-story to the games (the conflicts between players when they’re not on the field), they enjoy the strategy, they enjoy the big moments, the anticipation of what could happen.

Either way I couldn’t give a shit, which has left me with a small pool of friends as I graduate. In the earlier years here I tried the odd sport. I played football for a year, which proved to myself that I could do anything, cause seriously I fucking hated that sport. And I mean I’m not horribly clumsy or anything, I think I was alright at the sport, but fuck was it a lot of work for something I didn't even feel remotely interested in.

I played it to try and connect with the people in my school. I found that I if I faked interested in these things I could have something to talk about with them. 3 years of this got old though, and eventually I just gave up, and now I just talk about things that interest me and try not to bore people.

One of the most enjoyable parts of living in this small town was when I formed a band with some of the people in my school, around the age of 13. The band members generally lost interest and went back to focusing on their sports; baseball, football, hockey…

Even now I can only muster up one person on my cell phone who is somewhat interested in what I have to say, the only other person who shared my interests is in another province now and we don’t chat online very often.

Up until about a year ago I couldn’t even care for school, at least now I feel that drive for education, for something more.